Finally able to post

I have finally have enough time to post today and things around here have been kind crazy. Dad has not been feeling good the past couple of days and today he got up and he is having trouble breathing. He was standing at the sink and he was panting trying to catching his breath. He uses an inhaler for the times that he can't breath and he has used more in the last 3 months than he ever has before. He wants another inhaler today so Mom called in the refill to the pharmacy and will go pick it up later today. He sits in his chair with the heating pad on his chest and the heater in his chair on and a blanket wrapped around his neck and he is still cold and the AC is not even on. He also is having memory loss. He has argued about what date it is and still thinks that he is right until he looks at the calendar and then says that he lost a year and doesn't understand it. I really think that he has the starting of Demetia and it is getting worse some days but others are like he used to be. I know that it is the way that it starts out and gets worse little by little, but this is my dad and I didn't think that this would happen to him. But no family is exempt from things like this. When my grandmother (his mom) was sick when I was little, she had cancer and she was so mean to me and the other women in her life and I could never understand why she was so mean. She would only be nice to my Aunt that she lived with, she had been living with us since I was a baby, and Mom and her got into a fight and she went to live with my Uncle down the street. Grammy was partial to boys, she didn't like girls, her own daughter was disliked. She didn't want any female to come into contatct with her men and if they did she would try and run them off. I can remember when birthdays would come around, my brother would get good presents on his birthday and even on my birthday. I remember getting a coloring book and crayons (the cheap kind of crayons) and he got a Tonka truck and bulldozer and I ran to Mom and asked her why Brian got the big presents on my birthday abd I got this. She took the toys away from Brian and gave me the presents that her and Dad had gotten me and told Grammy that is was not fair for her to give Brian presents that were so much better than what she had given me and that is why she moved to my Uncle's. By the time that they had found the cancer she was so sick and she didn't even know who any of us were, she would call Mom by her daughter's name and say things that were crazy, at the time we thought that they were crazy, but come to find out she had Dementia and she didn't know any better. I hope and pray that Dad doesn't get like that because I don't think that Mom will be able to handle that and trying to make sure I am taken care of. I try to do most things for myself but there is only so much that I can do myself.
I have not done any scrapping in about 4 weeks and I am trying to get some done this weekend so I can be productive and have something to do besides watch TV. So that is the plan and hopefully there will be something topost tomorrow.
Thanks for stopoing by and reading my blog. Have a great day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

UPS Man came to visit today!

The UPS man left me a new toy at the door this afternoon. I had ordered the QK form QVC last Wednesday, so it came today. I have the Pink handle and the Olivia Alphabet but I wanted the one from QVC ever since I started scrapping and it was finally on Easy-Pay and I just went ahead and got it. I want a new Alphabet but they are so expensive and I can't justify buying one just to have one but the one on QVC was the one that I really wanted so I caved in. So, now I have a Upper case and Lower case Alphabet and one unicase alphabetand I have the Auto-Delivery shapes coming also so I wil have some that I dont have. I have been looking eBay lately and they are expensive there too but I have the one that I teally wanted so I am set for now. I am going to make a Birthday Card for my pain doctor, his birthday was earlier this month and since I stared scrapping and card making I have made him cards for Christmas and his birthday. He has been really good tome since the first time that I had meet him in 2000, He is a really nice guy, and he is only March to August older than I am. The first time that I found out that he was only 5 months older than I was, I was shocked because he doesn't look like he is 40, he looks like he is in his early 30's. Mom goes and see him also so tomorrow is appointment day to get my morphine pump refilled. Sometiems I wish that I didn't havce the dumb thing and I was at one point going to get it taken out and just take oral pain medicine but the doctor doesn't want me to do that because he thinks that the pain would be too much for me to handle without it. I sometimes don't think that it works alot of the time but I don't know, but I do know that when it gets real close to have it refilled I go through the DT's ( no pink elephants or things coming out of the walls) but I get sick and don't want to get out of bed and want to die. I am supose to go 30 days in between refills but for some odd reason my body thinks at 25 days that there is no more mprphine there and starts going haywire and it is no fun for me. I start getting muscle spasms and they go to my legs and I cannot stop them and have to have Mom come in and hold my legs in the bed or the chair so I don't fall out and then I have to have a shot of Regalan to get me through the day and even taking oral meds doesn't help because the morphine pump is nsot going through my bloodstream like apin pills do, it goes directly to my spinal cord and that is the way the morphine is delivered. I don't have the side effects of the morphine like taking it by mouth, it goes through the nervous system and not blood so I don't get the "High" like some do from morphine. I even took oral morphine and didn't get the "High" but when I took Oxicontin that was a drug that I never ever want to take again. It made me so groggy and sleepy that I would fall asleep at the drop of a hat and lose days at atiem and couldn't remember anything that I was doing or saying at times. I didn't stay on that very ling because of the cost and the side effects of it, Mom was on it also and she ws the same way and she would sleep for hours at a time, Dad was worried about us bothand he ws the one that told us what we looked like while taking it. It has been compared to heroin and as far as I am concered it is and I want no part of it anymore. But thankfully I have gotten off all but the pain medicine that I am on now and the muscle relaxator and that is it and I am able to function and able to have a clear head so I can scrap.
I finished to ATC Swap board that I started last weekend the mini clothes pin came and I have put them on and am going to post a new picture soon. I am going to post all of my layouts so I can have a link here for everyone to look at if they wna tot.
Have to go watch "The Apprecience" thanks for stopping by and Ha ve a great Day!!!!!!!!!!!!