Here are some pictures of the new member of our family. His name is Raz-Ma-Taz and we are calling him Taz. We got him on the 13th of February and on the 17th Mom and I were taking him to the vet. He had diarreha and I was not going to take any chances with him since he was so little. So off to the vet we go and when we get there we find out that he has a slight case of Giaradia, which is a parasite that lives in the intestines and the only way to check for it is with a special test. So the vet put him on a dewormer and antibotics. He got a dose at the vet and by the evening he was feeling better and I was happy. Then this past Sunday, we were at the vet again but this time he had a running nose and he was not feeling good at all, the vet also said that he had lost almost 1/2 pound in a week and we had to start feeding him with a syrigine if he would not eat on his own. Well, he did not want to eat at all so Mom and I had to force him to eat and he was not happy about it. I am so worried about him and I don't want and I don't want to miss anything on him since I had missed something about Boots, I am so worried that he is not getting any better and he won't eat hard food today so I had to mix up the canned food and feed it in the srygrine again. The vet wants us to feed him 4 times a day and since Sunday the most that I have been able to do is 3 and I can't do it alone since he won't sit still long enough to eat. I am trying to get him to eat more and last night he did eat some hard food and drank water but not enough to keep him going all the time. Right now he is laying on the bed sleeping so I am off to mix up his food and try again
Keep fingers crossed he is going to be all right soon

Wow what a time that I have had lately

My life has been so crazy lately that I don't know if I am coming or going.
First of all my Grandmother had been sick and in the hospital. First she was living with only 1 working kidney and the other one was blocked and the doctor's were trying to get it unblocked with medicine but her blood pressure was going up and they could not get it under control and they had talked about doing a orocedure that would unblock the blood vessels to her kidney but her age was a factor and they tried all they could without doing it and thy finally decided to try the procedure. So she goes in the hospital on Dec.5, 2006 for the procedure and it failed and she was probably going to go on Dialysis, with Grandma everything is a big deal and she was a worry wart about things, so she was in the hosiptal for about 3 weeks and they sent her to the Rehab Center to regain her strength so she could go home in the future, while in the Rehab center we think that she got pnemonia and that put her back in the hospital and for the last 17 years my Uncle has lived with Grandma and Grandpa to help them out, he was at the hospital each and every day that she was there, he was so dedicated to her during the whole time that he lived with them and I am so impressed by the way that he never complained about anything. So now that she is back in the hospital again and she is weak and not able to fight the infection off so again she is on antibotics and they had to put her on the breathing machine to help her breathe and then things got worse for her and we were called to Arkansas to see what could be done if anything. So we started making plans to drive and had to make arrangements for Boots (my dog) and Missy (the bird), the bird was not going to be a problem to board, we were going to take her the bird store that she has been boarded at before, that was not a problem. The problem was Boots, a friend was supposed to take care of her but in the meantime her dog had to be put to sleep for her health problems and Boots would be by herself all the time and she was not used to that and I didn't want to do that to her and stress her out even more, so I started calling Kennels to get a price and let them know that we didn't know what exact date that we would get back but we had to be home by Feb. 16, 2007 so finally decided on Country Kennels. That was on Tuesday and we were leaving on Wednesday morning so the animals were taken care of and now we were getting things ready to leave. We leave on Wednesday morning and we get to Arkansas on Thursday afternoon. That evening we go to see Grandma. She doesn't know that we are there and it is so hard for me to see her that way and I knew that she would not want to live that way so the decision was made between Mom and her brother that they would take her off lifr support the next day. The doctor's were very suypportive with the decision and they did what was asked of them and we didn't think that she would last the day but she was a fighter and she was moved to the Hospice floor and we thought that we would get a call that said that she was gone. On Saturday morning, my uncle called and said that Grandma was awake and talking to him and we ought to get there, so Mom and I get ready and go the hospital and see for ourselves. Grandma didn't really know who we were but when asked and told who we were she was so excited that we were there and she talked to all of us for a little while and that was a blessing to us. She was having trouble breathing and the doctor's were giving her Morphine to help with the pain and the breathing so she went to sleep and never woke up after that and she stayed with us until Monday afternoon around 4:30 my uncle called us at her home and told us that she was gone. The viewing was on Wednesday and the funeral was on Thursday morning. Grandma belonged to the Fist Baptist Church and we had so many well wishers and food.
On Friday after the funeral I got a call from the kennel saying that Boots was not her self and they had taken her to the vet and the vet they took her to said that she might have a hormonr problem or be diabetic and we told them to take her to the vet that we use so they could check her out and they did and come to find out that Boots had Cancer of the Spleen,Kidney,and the Liver and there was nothing that could be done for her and if I wanted to take her a specialist I could but she might suffer and I did not want that so she was kept comfortable until I could get back on Monday afternoon that was the 12 of Feb. So when we got home and got the car unpacked Mom and I went to talk to the vet and see if there was anything that could be done. I saw Boots and knew right away that there was something was not right and she was suffering and I was not going to let her suffer anymore and I made the hard decsion that she needed to put down. So they did that I was feeling so guilty that I was not here with her in her time of need and I was crying all the way home and I had told Mom while we were still in Arkansas that if I had to put her to sleeep that I wanted to go to the Humane Soceity and the pound to see if I could get another dog. We went to both places but all they had was big dogs and that is not what we wanted so we ended up at Petland and we came home with a 10 week old Maltese puppy that we have named Raz-Ma-Taz and we are calling him Taz. He has taken a hole in my heart and made it whole again, not saying that I don't miss Boots but Taz is helping with the grieve and I am so thankful that we got him and if we didn't get him then there were ones in the paper that I was calling about. Will post pics soon of him.
So that is what has been happening in my life and finally things are starting to get back to a normal pace and I am glad about that. Thanks for reading and Have a great day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Still deciding whether I want to be involved with the EX

I am still trying to decide whether I want to be involved with Ken (my ex husband. If he walked out on me once what is there to say that he won't do it again, he says that he screwed up the first time and he won't do it again but still in the back of my mind I am still wondering if he will do it again.
What about the Colts and the Bears? Can't believe that they are going to the SuperBowl. Way to go!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have started Quilling, got a starter kit for Christmas and I have been quilling up a storm since, it is really fun to do and there is some much that you can quill, it is unlimited to what you can do. I have tried my hand at making a Angel. I used a onion holder to make it and at first I had no idea what an onion holder was but I ordered one and decided to try it and it is really neat what you can do with it,here is a pic of the 2 Angels that I have done so far.


I ordered the tool and had no idea how to use it and I had to play around with it to learn how to do it and I am not an expert by any means but it is getting easier to make things but still having trouble making things look like the pattern that I am using and I know that every one does things differently and mine won't look exactly like the pattern but I want to make mine look close and sometimes it doesn't and that is the thing that bothers me the most and I have to remember that I am still learning and things will come easier in time. But I am trying, here are some more pictures of what I have Quilled.






Thansk for reading my blog and have a great day!!!!! Keep smiling!!!!!!!!!!:)

I feel like a teenager in high school again

Well since last week I have talked to Ken (ex husband) every single day for about an hour at the least to 3 hours at a time and we still have not run out of things to talk about. We talk about when we were married and things that we have done since we have been separated and divorced. I have asked him some hard questions that most people would avoid but he has answered them to the best that he can and I can tell when he lies because he stammers and he gets quite. But now I think that if he walked in the door and asked me to marry him again I would and that would make alot of people unhappy. My dad is not happy that I am talking to him but it is only talking right now and that is all. We talk on the phone and email and even text messages. He called New Year's Eve at 11:30 so we could ring in the New Year together and see what the new year has in store for us. I told Ken last night that I was having the doubts creeping in again and he asked why. One reason is because of the guy that I am married to and the way that he has treated me for the last 6 years and after living with someone that doesn't believe that you are in pain and tells you that it is all in your head and there is nothing wrong with you, you start to believe it and it becomes a part of you and it is hard to get rid of but I am trying to beleive that I am worthy of having someone love me for what I am and not for what I can give them in the bedroom. I asked Ken if he could live without having a sex life and he told me that sex is not what it is all about and being with me and being able to help me and hold me at night, is what he wants and if the sex comes to be part of it then so be it. I have doubts sometimes about Ken and him walking out on me again but I am not too sure that he would do that again since he said that he was stupid for walking out on me the first time and he would never do it again, he said that he wanted to take care of me but the only thing that changed in the last 12 years is that I have become very independant and able to take care of myself pretty good. We will see what happens in the future and what happens between us. We had alot of great times together and I am hoping that we are going to have alot more in the future and if we can make a go of it after being away from one another for 12 years and it seems when we talk that it has not been that long and we have picked up where we left off. I am waiting for him to call now and he will call after his dad goes to bed at 8:30 and we will talk for about an hour. Turn in for the rest of the story later

A Blast from the Past

I got a call from someone that I thought I would never hear from. The phone rang and I waited until the Caller ID came up and it said Moore, Ken and I thought what is this and answered it and he asked if this was me and I said yes and he said "Do you know who this is?" and of course I did and told him "Ken" and he asked how I knew and told hime Caller ID. So that started a 2 1/2 hour phone call. I have been thinking of him alot and I was thinking about his mom and dad, his dad is the nicest person of the face of the earth and I have no problem with him. But my ex mother in law was a different story, I did not hate the woman but I did not trust her and she was not the nicest to me at times and always talk about me behind my back. But last night I found out that she has passed away the same day that I got hurt in 2002. Ken told me that he was happy that he had called, he also told me that he had been if Florida not too long ago, and he was here in Sarasota and he didn't stop and see me and that really bother me but I understand that he didn't know if I was married or what was happening in my life. I had sent a letter to him at his last known address in Greencastle, he didn't get it but his Dad did and he kept in the bible and gave it to him last night. The whole time we were talking we both said at different times that it was so good to hear each other's voices. I had wanted to ask him a question and I finally got the nerve to ask him last night. I always wanted to know why he walked out on our marriage, he told me that he didn't know then and he still doesn't know now and it was nothing that I had done and I wanted to know if he didn't love me anymore and he said no and I believe him. He told me that he is divorced again and back in Indiana and he had lived all over the US. What is so funny is that yesterday was my 6 year anniversary to the jerk that I am still legally married to. I told him every thing that has happened to me and why I am in a wheelchair, by the end of the call I had started crying and telling him that I really wanted to see him again and if he could come to Fl and see me and I think in the near future I will be seeing him and I am sure that my Dad will have something to say about it and really don't care, I still have feelings for him and I always will. I told him that if things would of been different between us and he didn't walk out the way that he did I would of been back in Indiana as fast as I could of been but I was terrified that he would walk out on me again and I would not have anyone in Indiana except for his family and I didn't want that and I stayed in FL. Well anyway stay turned to see what happens next and what the future brings for me and Ken again.
Thanks for reading my blog!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Finally able to get back to the land of living

I am finally able to get back on the computer more than a few minutes at a time. I have been having problems with the swelling of my feet and legs so I was in bed for a lot of the day and night. Today I had to take Boots to get her shots for the year. You would think that the vet would be happy that someone was there to answer questions for them but all they did was tell me that the next time I had to drop her off and then come back at a later time and get her, but I don't like doing that because the last time I did that it ended up costing me a arm and leg to pick her up and if I am there I can tell them that I don't want to pay for that. But when you drop them they do what they want and when you pick them up you have to pay in order to have your animal back, but I had to get medicine for her ears and her HeartGuard and Advantage. When we got home, she was waiting for me to put the medicine in her ears and she took her HeartGuard and then she wanted her Begging Treats. Hopefully her ears will clear up and they will be better in a few days.
I got an early Christmas present from my Mom and Dad. I have always wanted to learn how to do Quilling so that was one of the things that I had asked for. So it came 2 weeks ago and I started learining how to do it and it is really fun and so far I have made a Sun, Roses, Daisy, Candy Canes and other things I really enjoy doing it and I can do it sitting on the bed watching TV at night. I am looking for more patterns to learn new things. I joined a Quilling group on Yahoo and have learned a few things. I have ordered more papers to do more things with and I am going to post the pictures soon.
Thought that I would update my blog and thanks for reading it.
Have a great day and remember to smile each day!!!!!!!!!!!!!

New Slide show

Fianlly ableto get back online without problems

I am finally able to get online without any problems and able to go back to the MB that I belong too. Had a cyber crop with one the MB and am planning a crop with another one that I belong to. I am trying to get things updated so this going to be a short one but I am back on KNK now and I am so glad that I am able to chat with the girls again and I hope that they really missed me as much as I missed them. Glad to be back again. Thanks for reading my blog and Have a great day!!!!!!!!!! :)

I have had Computer problems

Well I thought that I was going to save money and still be able to get online with the same speeds, but that wasn't what happened. This is what happened to me and I will tell everyone that I can about this and hope that noone else has the problem that I did. I have Comcast cable for my computer and I had been looking into Verizon DSL and I finally convince Mom into letting me get it and when I was chatting with the rep from DSL I had asked over and over again what I needed to get 2 computers hooked up to the DSL and I was told that I would recieve everything that I needed in the kit that they were sending to me so I went ahead and placed the order and recieved the date that I would be able to install the DSL. So I took the old computer that Mom had and traded it out with the Gateway that I had in the other room, there was nothing wrong with it but when I got my back pay from Social Security I got me a new Dell and I was going to give the Gateway to my nephew when he came down but that never happened so I hooked it up to Mom's monitor and it worked great and it was alot faster that the one she had. So we waited for the delivery of the kit that would be coming for DSL and when it got here I should of sent it right back and never unpacked it and installed it on either computer. We have 2 phone lines and I should of had the DSL installed on the 2nd line the first time but I didn't think about it at the time but I tried to hook up the DSL on the main line but there were too many phones on that line and it would not connect, so I called and had it transferred to the other line and it took another 2 weeks but that was ok, I was not in that big of a hurry to cancel the cable and I am so glad that I didn't cancel it either. So I got it installed on Mom's computer and the first time that I had to restart the computer there was an error message on the screen and it would go away but when you turned it on or restart it there it would be and I could not find where it was coming from and why it was there. So then I tried to hook us up wireless and there was not the things that I needed in the box, so off to the phone I go and ask what I need and was told that they do not supply the USB adapters that I need and was told that was my responsibilty to buy those and install them. That pissed me offf and I was screaming at the person on the other end that I was told by 3 people that I would recieve what I needed to hook up 2 computer to a network and there was nothing there. So Mom told me to hook up my computer to the DSL and if she wanted to get online she would use mine which was fine with me. So I had Dad drill a hole in the wall to run a phone line into my room from the family room, then Mom and I went to get a longer phone line to run it into my room. We get it and run it through the wall and hook everything up to my computer. In the mean time I had problems with my printer that I use to print everything soI had talked to Lexmark and they were sending me a new printer because it was still under warranty so the day that Mom and I were hooking up the DSL the new printer came and after I hooked up DSL and installed the new printer and didn't bother with anymore I didn't need to use it right then so I thought everything was fine because it was showing up in the computer and it had printed the page it was supposed to and I just didn't think about it again. So that was Tuesday and on Friday I went to use the printer and it was giving me a error message that said that it was not hooked up to the computer, so I uninstalled the software and reinstalled it again and it would not work still so I tried all the things that the message said to do and nothing worked, so I go online to talk to Lexmark again and they had me try different things to get it to work and nothing worked at all so they said they were going to send me another printer and this time it will be another model so that is fine with me, so when I get the new one I hook it up and it will not scan at all but it will print so I chat with Lexmark again and they want me to install a new driver and then that should cure the problem and when I do that, it still doesn't work and in the meant time there is an error message that has popped up that says that there were DLL files that were missing. So I get online with Dell and try to find out what happened to the DLL files and they told me the only way that DLL files are deleted is by a hacker or a virus from software, I cannot get online with the DSL software at this time either so I hook up the cable and am able to get online right away so I am chatting with Dell and the only way that I can get all the files that have been deleted was to wipe the hard drive clean and reinstall everything again, so I started to back up files but there was a problem with the program and I could not back up the files that I wanted to keep. I lost all my pictures and layouts that I had stored on the hard drive but luckily I had some of them on CD and some of them were on Shutterfly.com but there were some pictures that I didn't have extras of but they were not that imporant. I started to erase the hard drive and reinstall all the software at 2:30 pm on Friday afternoon and I was still not done at 9 pm that night so on Saturday I was still installing software and pictures and other stuff that I wanted in here. Come to find out there was a virus or something in the software for the DSL and when I tried to uninstall it, it would not let me uninstall it so that is why I had to wipe the hard drive out. I called on Monday to cancel the account and DSL wanted me to talk to their techs about the problem and I had already tried to talk to them and all they told me that it was not their software so it had to be something with the computer and the printer they told me to buy another printer and I told them it was brand new just out of the box and the computer is fine except for what the software did to my computer. I checked Mom's computer and there were files that had been removed from hers also, I had just upgraded her Windows so I knew that there were no errrors on hers and when I installed the software then there were errors and the only thing installed after I upgraded was the DSL and I took it out as soon as possible, Mine has taken almost a full week to get everything back in and adjusted to the way that I like it. Finally got DSL cancelled and am back on cable and things are fine and the printer works fine too and the DSL is a peice a junk and I would not recommend any one to get DSL. It may be cheaper but when you average the time that it takes to fix the problems that it causes then it is not worth it at all and I am going to stick with cable. So that is what has been happening in my world and I am not happy about losing alot of things and some that can not be replaced but I guess that is the price that you pay for not backing things up but all that is now on here is backed up and new things willbe backed up on a weekly basis.
Thanks for taking the time to read my blog and Have a great day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I a bad blog stalker

I must admit that I am a bad blog stalker because I have not been doing my daily reading in the last 2 weeks and when I went to read the blogs alot of them were not updated and I didn't feel so bad about not being able to have time to do my own and then there were the ones that I read that were updated and then I felt bad and decided that I am going to update mine everyday with something. I don't have an exciting life and don't have any friends but I am trying to get things done with scrapping and I am finally got the nerve to submit things to a magazine and I am going to submit things for a Design Team and see what happens, I hope that I am picked because the DT they have now are rocking and they would be able to teach me things. I hope not going to get my hopes up then if it doesn't happen then I wouldn't be too disappointed and then the next time I will try again. I am on one DT on Suzy's kits but they are not up and running really well yet so I don't do much for thenm but they are working on getting a new website and they are going to have a Message Board and I think a gallery too and I am going to help them run that and that will keep me busy and then I am on 2 MB and I want to keep up on those and I have to make myself go to them each day and I have not been doing that and when I do sign on there are alot of posts that I have to read through and then I get bored and stop and then I don't know what is going on and I feel like a outsider and I know that is not the way they are and I have to make myself sign on there and read, I have nothing but time. I can't wait until Suzy's get theirs up and running, I have alot of great ideas and I am hoping that there will be alot of peopl that sign up for the MB and then when there is enough people I am going to have a cyber crop and see what kind of designers that get our kits. I am excited about this. Iam goign to do a coupld of pages that I am going to send it to a magazine or two and see what happens I want to be published in a major magazine and see what my name and layout looks like in print.
Well have to go fix dinner now. Thanks for reading my blog and have a great day!!!!!!! :)

Papers from Polar Bear Press came

I got my papers from Polar Bear Press and I am in love with them, they are one of my very favoite lines and the other one is BasicGrey. I have really liked Polar Bear since the first time that I saw them last year when I got it in a kit that I get monthly. I didn't think that I would get anything from the Polar Bear Press kits but I checked the comment section and she had left me a comment to get in touch with her. I think they are great and I am going to take a picture of them and will post it when I get it uploaded on the computer.
I have been working on Mom's computer for the last 3 days and I hope that it is finally done so tomorrow I can get DSL installed in it and then we can be online together and I can cancel my cable. I have treid to install DSL on it and the seems to be something that will not connect and I don't know why yet. Had to transfer it from one phone number to another one because we had too much on the main phone line and switch it to the fax line that we don't use anyway so it took another week to hook it up and they called today and told me that I could install the software and hook up but Dad seems to think that there is something wrong with the computer and he has had me trying to fix a problem that I don't have when I am on there and it only happens when he is playing Spider Solatire and he has to wake me up to have me come look at it and I think that he falls asleep and the screen saver starts to come on and the mouse sticks a little and he has a fit and starts to pound on the mouse and it is a new mouse and if he breaks it I am going to make him buy a new one himself. He knows nothing about computers and he will drive me crazy standing over me and ask questions which is fine if I am not trying to do something and he says that he wants to learn but then when you try to show him he gets bored and leaves and that is madding to me and I want to throttle hi,. So hopefully in the morning I can install DSL and get it up and running on Mom's and then I can get it installed on mine and take cable off and cancel it. DSL is alot less money than cable and I have cable TV and I think that sucks.
I am trying to get things organized and straighten up in my scrap space and when I start to do something I find something else to do and I am behind in some things that I want to do. So hopefully I can get some things done in the morning and afternoon.
Thanks for reading my blog and Have a great day!!!!

I got a email that said that I had won a press release from Polar Bear Press the other day and don't you think that I was surprised to learn that I had won. I have really liked the papers from there since I first saw them in a kit that I got from Suzy's Kits last year and they are one of my favorites and now I have the new ones with stickers coming to me. I have not been able to scrap alot lately (for the last 3 weeks), Mom has been sick with a Bladder and Kidney infections and she has not been able to do much for herself and she has needed help to walk and she has needed to use my chair and I used the other one when I went outside to get the mail, she is starting to feel better but she is still really weak and walking to the kitchen and back wears her out and she is sleeping alot during the day and she is still sleeping in my room at night, which I don't care. I have been the one to do the cooking and cleaning up the kitchen, Dad has not offered to help at all and that is what makes me so upset. If he would at least offer to help that would be something, but that is not going to happen. Mom is trying to do somethings but it tires her out and she has to sit or lay down and then she is wiped for the rest of the day. Saturday is the first day that she went out of the house to go get our hair done and then that evening we went out to dinner at El Adobe and when we got home she was so tired that she went to sleep right after we got home. I have been so busy that I have not had time to make 2 birthday cards for Dad's birthday Friday so that is what I have to do today and get them done so we can give them to him on Friday. I know that Mom is trying to get to feeling better and I tell her not to rush it and when she feels like doing something then she will and not to push herself or she will be in the bed again and feeling worse and we don't want that. I have been having alot of pain in my back the last 3 days and I can't get relief by taking pain pills and I sweat laying on the heating pad so I guess I am going to have to deal with it until it decides to go away, but it is slowing me down doing the things that I have to do around here.
Thanks for reading my blog

Sick of palying Nurse maid

I am so sick of playing nurse maid that I wish that I could run away and stay away forever. I know that Mom can't help being sick but her depending on me in driving me crazy. She finally went to the doctor today to see what is wrong with her and I hope that she finds out what is going on. I still think that she has a kidney infection or stone, and then ontop of that she had the flu. She has been so wacky and out of her head that I was worried about her that I took her pain pills away from her so that I could monitor them and make sure that she wasn't taking too many. But even with me doing that she still acted like she was drugged up. I don't know what is happening but she needs to get better and go back in her room at night so I can get sleep and rest. I have been going non stop since Friday and I have not had a total of 2 hours myself. Friday, Dad took me shopping, so I could get the weekly stuff, then Saturday, I was going at 7 am, had to change the sheets on my bed and wash those and then I didn't do the laundry last week so I had the laundry to do and that took all day and then had to cook dinner and clean up the kitchen and then Mom was up all night Saturday night/early Sunday and then yesterday she was needy all day and then last night I helped her take a shower and washed her hair for her and then blowed it dry after I got my shower and washed my hair and drying mine. She fianlly slept the biggest part of the night and she was up at 4 and I was in the bathroom and heard a noise andcame out of the bathroom and found her on the floor and had to get Dad to help me get her up. And today I have loaded the dishwahser and run it and then emptied all the trash and cleaned the bird cage and feed her and now I have a few minutes to myself so I decided to update this and I know that it sounds like I am bitching and gripping but I am not I am just venting and this is the only place that I have to do that. I am trying to not hold things against anyone but it is hard not too when Dad does nothing but sit in the chair and make comments and bitch about what I fix for dinner. I had fixed Roast and potatoes, carrots and I listen to what Mom told me to do and the gravy tasted like wall paper paste to me and he agreed and said the meat was not a good cut but he ;liked the way I did it. Oh well I am not looking for praise just a little thank you for doing that for me and I didn't get it . That is life and I am through bitching and Thanks for reading today

Rain, Rain Go Away and Come again another day!

It has been raining now, for 2 days and I am tired of the gray skies and the high humidity. Today is the grey skies and really high humidity. The kind that makes you feel like you are having a hard time breathing. It makes me feel like there is an elephant sitting on my chest and I hate to have to go outside. We smoke in the garage, since Dad had his heart surgery, and sometimes it is all I can do to sit out there and smoke, I know that I should quit but I don't want to and that is half the battle of quitting. Dad quit cold turkey after he had the Heart Cath that caused him to have a heart attack, but after he had his heart surgery, he still smoked but not like he did before. He would come out in the garage and take the butts that we had and light it and take a drag and put it out, or he would take a whole one and take a few drags and put it out and save it for later and he would tell the doctor that he was not smoking but he was. He would do really good for a few days and not smoke at all and other days he was out there as much as we were. But since Feb. He has not had but 1 smoke and I am really proud of him and he says that it still bothers him after dinner but he has not had any since the day that he got out of the hospital. Mom has tried to quit before and she had stopped for 3 months and Dad still smoked and he did it in the house and would not go outside for her so she started again and said that she is not going to stop again unless she really wanted to and it was her decision to quit. So anyway, it has rained since Friday and the total amount according to our rain gauge we got about 3 inches. We needed it greatly but now I am tired of it and want to see some sunshine in the Sunshine State. We finally got someone to come do our lawn since Dad can't and won't do it anymore. The guy, Oscar, came by on Friday afternoon and looked at the yard to give us a quote and told Dad and I that the yard needed a lot of cleanup on it and he would start the cleanup on Saturday. And he quoted us for the cleanup $140 and to do the weekly stuff was going to be $25 and to me that was not a bad price and Dad ok it and told him to start whenever he wanted and do what he needed to do. So he gets here about 9 am yesterday and it is raining and he and his helper start working and they left about 3pm and they did so much work that I can't believe what they did and how much better it looks. They cut the hedges and weedeated everything and even cut the tree in the front that was out of control and he cut it way back and it is so much better than before. Needless to say they worked so hard and they did a fablous job. Oscar hauled away everything that he cut down and cleaned up after themselves and it looks like he was not here and did anything. I went to get the mail and when I opened the door I saw them on their hands and knees under the hedge pulling weeds that the weedeater missed and when they finished you could see the grass and under it. We have a night blooming Jasmine on the fence that was going wild and he cut that back and pulled the weeds in the flower bed under it. I am really impressed by Oscar and the work that he did. He still has to do the backyard yet, but if he does the job he did in the front then our yard is going to look like it used to be when Dad took pride in it. The back yard is worse than the front was and it will take him longer to do. Boots is the only one that uses the back but she needs to have a nice place to go out and go do her duty and walk around in. The people that live behind us will be pleased that we are getting it cleaned up and it is going to stay that way. I am anixous to see what it will look like when it is all done. I am going to take pictures of the front and will post them in the morning when it stops raining.
Mom has been sick with the flu and a kidney stone and she has been down since Wednesday and finally she is feeling better today. She has slept in my room for the last 2 nights, Friday night was a really rough night. She moaned all night and about 2 in the morning she slapped me and woke me up and scared me because I'm not used to anyone sleeping in my bed, but she didn't know what she was doing and I didn't let it bother me. She slept on and off all day yesterday, so she was up all night and kept me up too and this morning I am a little cranky and short with people, I am trying not to bite heads off but sometimes I can't help it but I am trying
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Finally updating

I finally found time to do this without someone being right in my face, it is not Mom when she is in here watching TV, she doesn't bother me I can do what I want and she doesn't care. Jay showed back up again and he has been here everyday and when he is here is right over top of me watching what I am doing and asking questions about what or why I am doing something and it is driving me crazy and I am fixing to tell him to go home and not to come back again. Before he disappeared he was supposed to weedeat around the house for us but everytime he would want to do it, it was either late in the evening or he would not show up, so when he said that he was going to do it, he said that he had something to do right then and he would be back later on that afternoon or early evening which was fine cuz Dad was going to mow the grass and Jay was going to weedeat and then that would be done, well needlesss to say he did not come back that night and then he comes over on Sunday and when he got here it was thundering and lighting and there was no way that he was going to start and finish in time before it started to rain so he left and said that he would be back later and he was going to eat dinner with us for doing the yard. So I had made Chicken and Yellow Rice for Mom, me and Jay. Dad doesn't like it now he says so we have to fix another meal for him, so I fix ours and am waiting for Jay to call ot come and he doesn't show up and that makes me so mad, so I call his phone and leave a rather nasty message and tell him to lose the address and phine number here and not to come over anymore. With friends like him I don't need any enemies and he says that he will be here at 11:30 yesterday (Tuesday) and I told him that if he doesn't show up not to come by here or to call me anymore and if he does come I will not answer the door, I was tired of being put on the bottom of the list when he promised to do something for us and he was trying to tell me that he is always here for us and that he puts us first and all the usual BS but I just told him that I was serious and not to come over if he was late and not here at Noon, lo and behold he was here at 11:30 and he actually weedeated for us. He did a half ass job but it looks better than it did before he started. We are also looking for someone to do the yard work since Dad can't do it anymore, and he will not do anything but mow the lawn and he only does that if we bitch enough about it, so Jay called someone that he knows that does lawn work and he was supposed to be here yesterday at 3 to give an estimate and he didn't show up but at least he called and said that he would be here Friday to talk to Mom and I.
So that is what happening with that part, I took Boots to the Vet on Friday to get her shots and some ear medicine. I had wanted to get her microchipped but when I went they were always out of them but this time they had them, so I had her microchipped. They don't use 1 of them they use 2 in case she is lost and ends up at a shelter that uses a different scanner than what she has, so they put 1 in that is the standard use and the other one is the less common one, that is how they explained it to us. The vet couldn't get one of the chips to scan when she put it in and it finally worked and she put the other one in and it was easy to find, while they were doing their thing they told me that Boots had a loose tooth and she needed to have her teeth cleaned and the one pulled so I have to take her and drop her off on the 17th and that is not what I want to do. I don't like having to drop her off because the last time I did it ended up costing me a lot of money and I had to pay to get her out of there, maybe this time it won't be that way since I have the insurance to cover her dental work the only thing that I should have to pay for is the antibotic after they pull her tooth that is loose and that should be it and if it is not I am going to pitch a fit. They tell you one thing and they do a completely opposite thing and they have you over a barrel if you want to have you animal back. I told them that if it is going to cost more than they told me when I go in, they better call me and ask if that is ok before they do anything to Boots. Hopefully she won't have to have much done except her teeth cleaned and that one pulled.
The days are getting better these days but on Jully 11, it will be another sad day for me when I think of my little one. That is the day that he went home to be with God and the rest of my family that has gone before. I know that he is a better place and he is looking down on me and is keepping watch on me. I am trying to keep my chin up about it and trying not to get blue and all down in the dumps but it is hard sometimes. But scrapping and writing about it helps too.
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Trying to do a layout.................

I have been trying to do a layout with this particular picture and I have not been able to find any papers to go with it. I have tried to go through all the patterned papers and cardstock that I have and all the kits that I have and nothing that I have goes with it and it is so frustrating. I have finally found papers to go with it and now I have no idea how to do the page to make it look good. I have ideas but then when I go to put the page together it does not look right and then I take it apart and start all over again and then I get frustrated and put it away and then get upset that I can not do this page. I have been working on it for a week and half and the only thing that is done, is that is mounted on a piece of cardstock and that is all that is done. I need to stop worrying about it and it will come to me when I don't except it too so that is what I am going to do.
My dog, Boots has been due for her shots since March and I have been putting it off because when I take her it is a big production. First it is not that hard to put a harness and leash on her it is just when she see's it, she starts dancing and prancing around and she is ready to go when you get it on her and she cries until you open the door to the car. She is alright until we get in the parking lot of the shopping center where PetsMart is at, then she starts to whine and cry cuz she knows where she is going, the don't hurt her but she doesn't like to be poked on and she defintely hates to have her nails cut. When she was a puppy, Bill had cut her nails in the quick and since then she has not liked it and she will try and wiggle her way out and it takes 2 people to hold her and cut them but Mom and I can do it without stressing her out but Dad thinks that it takes him holding her down and when she doesn't listen then he smacks her and yells at her and then she is all stressed and she wants to get away and then she will mouth your hand like she is trying to bite and that makes him mad and he hits her. That makes me mad and then I yell at him for doing that and then we end up in fight. And if I ask him to help me do it, it is like pulling teeth so Mom and I do it and it takes a little longer but at least it is not like when Dad does it and then when Boots is not fighting with us the whole time. So I finally called last night and got her an appointment for Friday at 10 and it is going to be a fight to get Dad to put the harness on and when we get there he will have to be told that he needs to put her on the scale and then he needs to put the leash short so that she will not be going around everyone that comes by the desk and god forbid that we have to wait a few minutes he will take her and let run around the store with the leash out all the way and Mom has to yell at him to roll in the leash and keep it short and watch her. Then in the room he puts her on the table and then walks away from her and she wants to get down and she will try to fly off the table and I have to scream that he needs to watch her and then he gets mad. I am not looking forward to this and I told Mom that we ought to not tell him that we are going and go without him that way it won't take that long or I won't be in a bad mood that day. It is so stressful when he goes and I have to put up with Boots crawling all over me to try and get to Dad when he gets out of the car and she usually ends up putting bruises on me, luckliy I cannot feel them when she does it but they take forever to go away. Enough of that subject.
Today would of been my son's 17th birthday. DJ (Dakota James) was born June 27. 1989 and he passed away July 11, 1989. He was born with severe birth defects and he was not going to be normal and I am glad that he was here for as long as he was and he made my life better for knowing him. I miss him greatly and wish that he would of been able to live but God took him to be with him and he is an Angel and I know that with all my heart! Today is not a good day in my world but I am going to hold my head up and know that I will see him again. I can't believe that he would of been 17 today it doesn't seem that long ago that he was born and I was holding him in the NCICU at Riley's Childerns Hospital in Indianapolis. I saw more of that hospital than I care to but the nurses and doctor's there are some of the best people around and they treated me very well and I became friends with a few of the nurses that worked on the floor and they sent flowers and cards when DJ passed and that was very touching to me when they did that, after he passed there was a baby that had been there since the day that I was first there and he was addicted to crack and the mother had left him and he was being put up for adoption and the nurses asked me if I would hold and rock him when I was through with DJ and I did and I became very sttached to him and even thought of adopting him myself but there was no way that I could deal with a very sick baby after what I had been through and I was not in the emotional shape to be able to deal with the baby and it was probably a good thing that we didnt try to do it because 3 days after DJ, he had passed away too. I greived for him too but it was not like it was for DJ.
That is what happening here and thanks for reading my blog.

It is going to be a long hot summer,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Today maybe the offical day of summer but it has been so hot and humid here for almost 2 months and it is only June 21, so that leads me to believe that this is going to be a long hot and very humid summer and it is going to make me miserable. Ever since the day that I got hurt, my internal thermostat has been off. I sweat when the temperature gets above 70 in the house and I am always having a fan running on my desk and Mom and Dad say that I am trying to freeze them out of the house, cuz I am turning the thermostat on the AC down so it will cool off the house and not be a hot box all the time. Mom says that I am like a sauna and alot of the time I am and it drives me crazy. Since my hair has grown it is really bad on the days that I leave it down, then in a while I am pulling it back in a ponytail or wrapping it in the spider clip just to get it off my neck and to feel cooler. There is times that I think that I want my hair short again but then I think that it has taken me this long to get it where I want the length but there are times that I will want to take a pair of scissors to it but then I would not be happy and bitch about more than I do now. The woman that has done my hair for the last 12 years has really screwed my hair up this time and I am really, really upset about it and right now I am having to let my hair grow to all one length again and have someone else fix the screwup that Liz did to my hair. I had let my hair get to all one length and one day I decided that I wanted to get it cut like a style that I had seen on TV, so I found a picture in a book that was just like it and took it with me to get my hair done and showed it to Liz and she said that she could do it like it so I let her go ahead and cut it and the first time that she cut it, it looked nothing like the picture that I showed her and the next week Mom told her that I was not happy with my hair and Liz aske me if that was true and I said yes that is true and she said that she would fix and it would look like the picture. So she cut it more and by the time she had finished cutting my hair it was so short on top that it will not even go around a curling iron, I have not liked my hair since the first time that she cut my hair when I showed her the picture and now I hate my hair and it has to grow out and then I am not going to let anyone cut my hair at all. Well, Loz has left the salon and there is another woman doing our hair and last week was the first time that Stacy did my hair and with one blowdry she got my hair to look like the picture that I showed Stacy and she looked at the picture for a total of 30 seconds and Liz had the picture the whole time that she was doing my hair. So, Stacy said that Liz had cut my hair in a "Mullet" and it is going to take time to get it right and she would do it for me and make it look like I wanted in the first place. The reason that Liz is no longer at the salon is that she was moving with her boyfriend, soon to be husband to New York so he could do some work up there. But come to find out she had told everyone something different about what was going on in her life. She had told us that: She was movingbecause her parents were not pleased with her getting married and that they were trying to get in her business and they were driving her crazy and he was going to New York to work for 6 months and she was going with him to put space between her and them and yet she told someone else that she was already married and she had breast cancer and she was on his insurance and he was taking her to the best cancer treatment center in New York since he was going there to work anyway. She told another person that they had bought an apartment across the street from Central Park and she had a job in a salon there and they would be back when he finished the job in a couple of months, but my thing is and was if she had a job there and was coming back why would you get a job there and then up and quit when his job was done and move back here? I think that she didn't know the truth if it hit her in the face. She said that her parents knew that she was moving and her mom called the salon and asked to talk to her and was informed that she was not there and was not coming back and her mom wanted to know where she went and why. That is too bad that her mom did not know what was going on with her. I hope that she is not doing what everyone thinks that she is doing, she had been addicited to pain pills a couple of years ago and some think that is what is happening again and I hope not because she was out of it when that happened before. I tried to call her and see what was happening but she didn't answer and has not called me back, oh well I wish her the best and hope that she is happy with her decision that she has made.
Anyway Stacy is on vacation for 2 weeks so that means I have to wash my own hair (crybaby aren't I) , so that is what I did and put in a ponytail and leave it at that for now,but it is so hot here and I am hot too sitting here typing this blog. I am hoping that it will rain this afternoon to cool it off a little bit. If it doesn't rain enough it will be humid and muggy and that is miserable.
Well I am off to scrap a couple of layouts. Thanks for reading my blog!

Things around here are crazy

Things have been crazy around here and they have been that way since last Thursday. When Mom and I were going to get our hair done we had a big tire blowout. As we were getting in the turn lane on Bee Ridge (the main road in our town) and then as we got in the lane we felt a big bump and then heard a bang and the tire went flat, actually it looked like someone had cut a big chunk out of it. Mom got the car stopped and asked me if I was ok and I was except I was shaking and concerned about her and what had happened. So I called the hair salon and told them that we weren't going to be able to make the appointment and while I was doing that Mom was trying to get her phone to turn on and she was so upset she couldn't do it so I gave her mine and turned hers on for her and she called Dad to come help us change a tire which in hindsight was not the thing to do. But Dad came and while he was on the way Mom and I were trying to figure out what had happened to make the tire blow like that. At first I thought that maybe she had hit the curb that sticks out a little too far if you don't watch out for it, but I don' t think that she hit that and if she had of then there would of been a lot more damage but the only thing that happened was the 2 tires on the passenger side of the car were blown out, the back one was not totally flat but it was losing air fast and there was no way that we could of gotten home on it. Well, Dad start getting things together to change the tire and he was so short of breath just walking from the truck with a jack to the car that Mom and I both thought that he was going to have a heart attack. It took him almost an hour to change the tire and he was so weak and pale at the end of it that he was going to try and change the other one and put his spare on it but Mom told him that she was going to call AAA and have them tow her to the Tire place to have new tires on, so she calls and while she is on the phone with AAA the sheriff's aide came and told her that she wanted AAA to know that they were there and wanted to know who they are sending and how long it would be before they got there so AAA told Mom who they were sending and the aide said that she would call in 15 minutes to see where the truck was at and how long it would be and in the mean time Dad wanted to take me home and then he would meet Mom at the tire place if she needed him and I didn't want to leave Mom there by herself but she told me to go and she would be fine. So Dad loads me up in the truck and off we go and while we were on our way home he told me that he thought that he was having chest pains and he wanted me home with him just in casse. So we get home and I tell him to tell me what kind of pain he was having and where it was and he said that it felt like he had heartburn and I told him that he needed to take his Nitro pills and he said that he would if it got any worse and thankfully it didn't and we did not have to go to the ER. Mom had gotten to the tire place and gotten her new tires on, and finally made it home around 2 in the afternoon and we started out at 9:30 that morning. Dad said that we must have hit something to cause the tires to go like that but we didn't and there was nothing in the road to hit so the tires must of have bad places in them and Mom said that they guy at the tire store said that the tire on the driver's side back had a bubble in it and it was the next to go. Thankfully we were not on the interstate going 70 mph and had this happen or there could of been a lot worse than 2 tires.
Since that day, dad has done nothing except sit in the chair and watch TV and eat. Mom had asked him to go out to dinner on Friday he didn't want to do that but he did and bitched the whole time. He told Mom that he was sore and stiff and he used muscles that he had not used in a very long time and he was not going to do that again if he could help it and Mom said the next time she would just call AAA first and not call him to do it.
We have had a drought for the last 4 months and needed rain badly and finally got some when the Tropical Storm came up the Gulf and we have needed to have our grass mowed and Dad kept saying that it was too dry to mow and when it rained the other day he said that it was still to dry to mow and he would mow the grass today. He finally did and it took him 4 hours to do it and he has a riding mower and all that he has to do is sit on it and drive and he came up with a lot of excuses to come inside and watch TV instead of doing what he was supposed to do. It starting cloudy up and looking like rain and I told him that it was going to rain he better get the mower put up and he went out and finished it up and it took about 5 minutes for him to do it and it was done. I don't know why he doesn't just do it and get it over with but he puts things off and then it takes longer to do it.. Oh well at least it is done and it looks a lot better.
As for Bobby and I... We are planning on other date this week or weekend so that is what I am looking forward to and will update when we figure out what we are going to do and when.
Thanks for reading and come back soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :)

More pictures

This is Bobby and he was not happy that I took this and that is why that he looks this way and after I took this he took one of me and this is what it looks like:It looks like I am drunk but he had taken the camera from me and then snapped the picture and this is the result. When I saw this I almost deleted it but then I saw the humor in it and decided that if I was going to show his then mine had to go on here also.

Pictures from Date Night

Here are some of the pictures from date night that Bobby and I took . This one is the the 2 dogs in the stroller that a little older lady was pushing around the park adn after we took the picture she picked up a basket that had handmade flowers on stickpin and told me to pick one so I took a red Rose and I am going to use it on a layout. The camera that Bobby bought was not a good one and it was getting dark when we were taking the picturesso they are hard to see on here but I am in the process of retouching them to use on a layout .